Do you ever think?

Do you ever wanted something so bad, you wonder every day why you still haven't got it? Is because you didn't do enough? Haven't go the extra mile yet? Is the time not right yet? Then when you think some more and you realize you are not that desperate yet and there is still some time. Maybe it's not such a good thing to have it now.

Do you feel scare and suspicious when people suddenly offer unlimited help especially when they are not close to you? Are they stocking up some brownie points for future help? Are they trying to form some alliance with you? Did someone ask them to do it? Will they help you now and b*tch behind your back later? Is there really good people out there who genuinely wanted to help you even when you didn't ask for it? Welcome to 21st century where good Samaritans are mostly found in Moral Education Books. You don't dare to believe it even if you encounter one.

Do you look at your favorite drop down list and feels it's entirely too long and there are some links you have no idea why you bookmarked it? Perhaps it's time to clean it up a bit? But you have been thinking about doing that for the past few years and it's still not done. Maybe it's not that irritating after all...... except when you want to look for the latest bookmark which is at the very bottom and you keep paging down like 10 times before you get to it. Maybe it's time to clean it up after all. At the same time maybe you should also clear some of your clothes. You wonder how can you have so many pieces and why some of them are purple colour...

Do you look at some creative piece of work and wish you can produce something like that too? Do you look at some simple yet creative art and think of doing it too? Do you see it and ask yourself why you didn't think of it? Maybe you are not that creative even though your mum swears you got the creative genes from her side of the family? Maybe I should just download a cartoon software and start doing a simple 3 panel cartoon that I have been thinking for some time.

Do you think I have entirely too much time that I start thinking crap everyday? Either that or the heart is not where the body is...